Weigh in

This is a mostly miserable post. I am not feeling too cheerful. I feel a bit like Eeyore, there are good things to report but I can't seem to focus on those. This is not normal for me and I hope it passes soon! This week I haven't lost any weight (although I haven't gained any either) and my body fat % has stayed the same. I have at least seen a small move in again on the tape measure. 1/4in lost from my waist and 1/2in gone from my hips. I should at least be happy about that.

The trouble is I don't feel like I deserve it. In the last week I haven't eaten as well as I could. As a result I don't feel like I have eaten as well as I should. I hate thinking about food in terms of 'should' and 'good/bad' eating. That is not how I truly believe food should be seen. What I do know is I have got a bit carried away with a little bit here and a little bit there. My meals have been (mostly) fine. They haven't been the problem this week. The problem has been snacks. Chocolate, cakes and desserts. They have been my downfall this week. I know the only thing that has saved me from seeing a gain on the scales is the exercise.

I know that if I don't get a hold on it now then this will become another failed/aborted attempt at losing weight. Well not this time. I am not going back to being obese. I refuse. Do you hear me? Whatever bloody force is out there that is trying to knock me off track I'm not having it. I will not be obese again. I WILL get a grip on this. Next week I will be able to post a more positive check in post. To help me do that I have made plans.

I have planned my meals for the next week.

I have planned my workouts for the next week.

I have taken into account days where we are out or very busy. I have made sure that on days where we are going to be out for most of the day I have planned slow cooker meals so that I don't get home and decide to go for something else.

I am going to go and start my week with a 50 minute workout. This week instead of updating my This weeks exercise box after every workout I am going to post every day about how the day has gone. This will probably be mind-numbingly dull but I plan to use it to keep me accountable and get back on track before I get to a place where I am just slipping quietly away pretending the last 10 weeks never happened. They did and I have liked it. I AM getting there this time, no matter how hard I have to fight my demons.

My goals for this week are to

eat well

exercise as per my plans

by the end of this week step up to level 4 of c25k.

be happy!