About Me

I am a 33 year old mum of two who has spent her entire teenage and adult life struggling with her weight. I am not going to struggle with it anymore. I am in charge!

Saturday, 22 October 2011

This would be so much easier if.....

I was never bored, hungry, tired, sad, happy, celebrating, commiserating .............

The list is endless.

Wednesday, 19 October 2011

Weigh in

Well I haven't done this for a while!

Weight - 11st 4lbs- This is 1lb up on the last time I weighed in here BUT I am happy with it because it's 2lbs less than Monday!!!
Body fat - 35% - 1% up since last time I weighed in here/5% total loss.
1/2in gain from chest since last time. (I really don't need to keep saying that do I? You get the idea) .
1/2in gain on waist.
1/2in gain on hips.
11 1/2in total loss.
I am kicking myself that I have spent the last 6 weeks stalling and the last 13 weeks making no progress at all but I know that I didn't really feel it in that time. I am going to focus on the fact that in that time I easily have re-gained everything I had lost (and more). In the past that is what has happened. So I am going to convince myself that this is a positive thing. I have managed to sustain my weight loss for 3 months. Now it's time for the next attack.
I have 5 weeks till my birthday. I AM going to be reach the new low weight I talked about by then. The lowest weight I have been at in the last 12 years is 11st 2lbs (156lbs). That means my very lowest aim is 3lbs in the next 5 weeks. That is a very low pressure goal.

Tuesday, 18 October 2011

Two posts in two days. That hasn't happened for a while!

Yesterday was a good day. I stuck to my food plan and did manage to go out for a run in the evening. My short, fast run consisted of 1.01 miles and took me 9m 56s. To say I am chuffed to bits at being able to run a mile in under 10 minutes is something of an understatement.

I think it is going to take me a fair bit of effort and determination to get back on my journey but for now my main focus is trying to make sure I get back to eating properly rather than grazing all day long. Grazing all day would probably be fine if I were eating sensible things but when it is mostly cakes and chocolate that I am grazing on that's not so good!

Today has been a good day too. Mostly. I did eat an un-necessary and un-planned chocolate bar at lunchtime but it was a 15g bar of good quality, dark chocolate so I will go easy on myself there.

One thing that I have noticed since I started this journey is how much of a good impact it has had on my children. They have always been healthy and active but are now even stronger, healthier and fitter than ever before. For that I give myself an A+.

Monday, 17 October 2011

Sneaking back in

I have tried several times in the last month or so to get back in the swing of things but it hasn't been happening. I am considering myself VERY lucky that I haven't gained more than I have. I have gained 3 pounds since my last weigh in post. That has taken my current weight back up to 11st 6lbs (160lbs). This morning I have woken up feeling ready to get back on the road. I'm not sure why the change but I do know that every part of me is screaming that I am so not ready to settle here.

As for what has been happening for the last month (probably closer to two in actual fact) I haven't strayed too far from what I am aiming to achieve. I have managed to keep up the running (bar a rest for over training and a cold). My running time has slowed down a little but I can run for longer. Food wise I have not been eating the best way but I have (mostly) stuck to meal times.

I have planned my meals for today and evening meals for the rest of the month. I am going to work on a day by day basis for the meals during the day, partly because we are trying to make sure that we don't spend quite so much on food and eat what we have in unless we REALLY need to shop. If I can combine that with losing weight then I will be a happy bunny.

One thing the last couple of months has shown me is that I can do a reasonable job of sustaining a weight.

Another thing I am going to start doing again is blogging most (if not every) day. So I apologise for the random drivel that will be finding it's way into your blog feed.

First of all I am aiming at getting back to losing weight. Next goal after that is to get to a new low by my birthday. That gives me about a month to lose at least 4lbs. I'd love to get down to 10st something but I am not going to approach this with any pressure.

Have a marvellous day everyone.

Thursday, 29 September 2011

I haven't disappeared in a puff of smoke

Lately I haven't had time to spare to sit down and update this blog. I haven't gone too far off track. I am still 20lbs down, I am still running, I am still here. When life calms down I will be back more often.


Thursday, 8 September 2011

So my legs need time to recover

I liked finding that I could run 5k non stop in August. I liked it so much I have done it several times since. Not every day but because I have done other things on most of those in between days I haven't really given my legs a chance to recover. Last night they decided that if I was going to ignore them then they were going to shout louder.

I took part in a local 5k race. It's a regular thing and husband talked me into it. It is very hilly and as a result I found I couldn't run the whole thing. I tried, oh boy did I try, to keep making them start running again but just over 4k in I had to walk for a bit. I kept starting running again but it didn't last and that last 1k was walk/run the whole time. I did make myself run up the last hill though.

This morning my legs ache. I knew they would. My last three runs have been tough going. I have had to force my legs to carry on. Husband (he who never rests) has told me he would suggest I take a week off running. I can do other things; gently cycling, swimming and core/upper body workouts but rest the legs is the general message.

My first thought was genuinely "No running for a week! That's a long, scary time". But I know from the way my legs feel that if I don't do this I will regret it. Then I actually chuckled at the thought of me being bothered about not being able to run for a week.

Watch this space because I expect my next run in a week to be damn good. Then I am going to start building my way up to 10k ready for May.

Wednesday, 7 September 2011

Weigh in

Weight - 11st 3lbs- No loss since last week making 19 1/2lbs loss total.
Body fat - 34% - 1% loss since last week/6% total loss
1/4in loss from chest
no loss on waist
1/2in loss on hips
13in total loss
So I didn't lose any weight this week and I was a very bad blogger. Time kind of melted away and something I was vaguely involved in kicked off and I became more involved equalling lots more time needed than I had. I did lose inches and fat though. That I am pleased about.
I haven't really given a lot of thought about my plans for the next week but I would like to shift the scales further down. I am going to set some time aside to dedicate purely to giving some thought to how I am going to achieve that.
I am running a 5k race FOR FUN tonight. I will be doing it with my husband while we abandon the children to the fate of the grandparents. A year ago the suggestion that I would do that would have had me rolling on the floor clutching my sides.
One thing I have continued to find time for is running. At the weekend I went out by myself and ran my furthest/longest run so far. It was only a little more than previous times but I was really pleased with myself because the whole time my legs were very heavy and I had to push to keep going. The idea of doing that made me feel very proud of myself.
This is a strange bitty post. I apologise for that but it kind of reflects how my thoughts are in my head right now. I have a lot going on and no real sense of order to it.