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I am a 33 year old mum of two who has spent her entire teenage and adult life struggling with her weight. I am not going to struggle with it anymore. I am in charge!

Thursday, 5 May 2011

I have to get past this point

I am at the point where I start  to feel like giving up and thinking that I'm not really that bothered. I am leaving my 'safe weight' zone. I know that in reality I do want to do this and I know I need to keep going. But man it's hard. I've not been properly below this weight for, um, ever.

So what if I don't carry on. So what if I just stay at this nice comfortable, wibbly-wobbly, cuddly me. Why is this point so hard? What do I need to do to get past it? I am having to be super strict with myself when it comes to eating because I am feeling very much on the edge of a big, blow out binge. I know that I don't really want that and the downward (or should that be upward) spiral that inevitably follows.

Yes this is an attention seeking post. Yes it is just because I want the reassurance that I can do this. Sorry.


  1. You can do it!! Don't you quit! You have come too far. Remember how it felt the first time someone said "You look good! You lost a lot of weight!" ?? Well just think.. if you keep pushing, the same people will be saying it again because you look THAT much more amazing! Don't give up. Binging is not the answer.. go for a good jog! It will make you feel much much better after. We are in this battle together!


  2. You don't ever need to feel bad about needing reassurance. Its actually good that you're reaching out for help where you can. Because you can do this! You've come a long way already and you're setting yourself up for a much happier future. Don't give up sweetie, just keeping rocking it.

  3. You can do this!HUG we will always be happy to reassure u!

  4. Yes, you can and will do this. You are present this time, making choices. Knowing how you struggle you are still doing it anyway! Every time that you avoid the binges and giving up you will be imprinting yourself with a better way of life. Eventually you will learn the new ways as habit. And even when you do slip up, which you will, you don't need to beat yourself up for it. Just move on and know that one mistake doesn't make you a failure. You are learning and changing. That is success!

  5. Krystle - One of my biggest problems is that point when people start to notice and comment. It sends me running for comfort. The only person who has said anything so far this time round is my husband. (It doesn't have that effect when he says it). Hence the security blanket thing. That was a light bulb moment inspired idea. http://gettingtherethistime.blogspot.com/2011/04/changing-patterns-of-past.html I'm not quite there with being able to go out jogging at the moment but I did find other non-food things to do.

    Laura and Candy - Thank you.

    Jasmine - You are good at this. Can you come and live in my house as my personal mentor? ;o)