Here follows a load of waffle, feel free to ignore but I need to offload.
Yes I planned my food for the weekend and then sat and planned a full week after that. The plan for the full week went on the fridge. It is still there now. I have put today's food into myfitnesspal along with the minimum exercise I plan to do today. The weekends food is a different matter.
I wrote meals and snacks down on a scrap of paper. On Saturday I stuck with it. I went for a run which became my second 20 minute run (I'm still finding it a little strange that I can now run for 20 minutes). Sunday arrived and I couldn't find my piece of paper. S'ok, I remembered what I planned for breakfast. After that it went way downhill. I couldn't find the piece of paper and 'other things' came up.
By lunchtime my husband had made a delicious smelling loaf of bread. So I used some of that to have with a cheese salad. Then I followed it up with one of the children's chocolate mousses. Excuse - They needed eating yesterday. WHAT? Yes it was nice but really, that was 10g fat I really didn't need.
In the afternoon I didn't have a nice healthy snack. Oh no, not me. I went for 3, yes 3, of my children's mini chocolate bars. Mini, that's ok. Um, actually no 1 would be ok. 3 = 318kcals/19g fat.
Dinner came and we could have had a nice healthy, plate of buffalo casserole or some thing. I had the buffalo steak to use. Clearly the only choice (in my lost list head) is a steak and ale pie, peas and roast potatoes. Hmm.
So looking at it there was nothing terrible about it. With a little bit of tweaking it would even be an ok day. BUT the lack of a little bit of tweaking is what is missing and makes all the difference.
I didn't exercise yesterday either. After the run on Saturday my legs were heavy and I was tired.
Ok so those are my excuses/reasons. STOP.
It is a new day today, I haven't lost my meal plan, my legs don't ache. I have no excuses. Most importantly I don't have 17 1/2lbs that I did have 3 1/2 months ago. Do I want it back? Do I ****! So my choices are that that there is no choice. I don't want it back and I am enjoying running. So my only option is eat well, move plenty, enjoy life.
Being AWARE, owning up to the choices, writing about it here, is what the change to a healthier lifestyle is all about! I have stayed on my diet for 93 full weeks now by not making it about the foods, but about my choices. I log everything I eat into a nutritional software, whether I eat stellar and on plan or I binge. This eventually took away all the excuses and made me see the consequences of every little bite. There was nothing I could hide from myself, or pretend didn't happen, or that that one little bite won't matter. I stripped away the illusions and looked it straight in the eye.
ReplyDeleteAnd you're right....making the decision not to regain is a powerful one. It's always a choice, eat with a blind eye or eat with the eye on the prize......You just pushed yourself into that direction!